Epiphany #1: Revenge....or not?

I have so much to learn about being gay, I can't even begin to describe to you the extent to my ignorance when it comes to the gay community, and its etiquette. So let me tell you about my latest discovery, because I find it rather comical and I'm sure whoever reads this can have a laugh at my expense.

So I was dumped in March by my boyfriend of a few months (yes, sad, i know), and of course I'm a bitch and thought I'd get my "revenge." A few weeks prior to the break-up I had received an email from a guy I knew my ex had a history with, (I wasn't sure what that history was, turns out they went on one date for an hour) and in this email he basically said we should hang out (as I have learned "hang out" means "sex" in gay). Well since my ex dumped me, I figured what the hell, and I end up "hanging out" with him. We have sex. Mind you, my ex is kind of obsessed with this man, and he has been emailing him for the past several months (yes, while we were together) telling him that he was in love with him. It was sweet revenge, but I'm a firm believer in karma, and I'm pretty sure this innocent hook-up gave me some bad karma.

I'm the asshole now. This poor guy that I used to get over my ex-boyfriend actually likes me. Don't ask me how or why, considering we had sex/hung out ONE time. But its true, I receive text messages and comments almost daily. I feel awful, but I can't help but think I'm innocent and helpless in this situation. I mean, coming into this gay scene as a newbie, I had no idea this would happen. I mean gay's are promiscuous by nature, right?! I figure I'd sex this boy up, then be on my way with a clear conscience and feeling relieved. Unfortunately, I was horribly wrong. Apparently there are gay men who actually like to be in relationships?! Hello?! When the fuck are you going to give me THAT memo? Karma is a bitch my friends, and I'm suffering the consequences.

Let me defend myself so I don't sound like a big slut. I am not promiscuous by any means, and NEVER randomly hook-up with guys. But the minute I decide to have a one-night stand I choose to sleep with the one guy who is emotionally insecure and desperately searching for love. I mean, I'm 18...how am I supposed to know? I say I'm the victim in this situation. Okay, that was a joke, but honestly, can you really blame me here? When I got the email from him, it was basically an invite to sex, so why is he haunting me?

And from this I gather "Gay Epiphany Numero Uno(Number One)". Although I once thought it only a fairy-tale told to little homos hopeful for a movie-like romance, apparently there ARE gay men who value a committed relationship. I just don't date them.

(P.S. The story of the hook-up is kind of funny, so I'll post that story in the near future.)