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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

wanted

Everyone has the desire to feel wanted, and when you experience the feeling you definitely don't want it to end. As humans, I think we have a natural affinity towards the feeling, and it is almost impossible to live a happy life without, at some point in your life, being blessed with the experience.

Sadly, when your single, it appears only those you don't actually desire are the ones who "want" you. Maybe that is karma's way of saying, "you fucked up" or "better luck next time." I don't really know, but what I do know is despite your obvious disinterest in the other person, their wanting gives you a sense of self-worth. Because no matter how vile you may feel, there is that one person who thinks you are anyway. You may claim they are annoying or stalkers, but in reality you know you bask in the attention. It's human nature, and you can't deny what your instincts tell you. It's always nice to know someone on this Earth is dying for your touch...dying for your love. Unfortunately, this reassurance and comfort compromises that other person's self-esteem.

No matter what they do, or how hard they try, your feelings remain constant. You can toy with their emotions all you want, but in the end the result is always the same. Isn't that what we are taught to believe? Nice guys finish last. Hidden among these cliché words is the inevitable. The nice guys, the ones that actually care, are always the ones who lose in the end. Because no matter how hard that guy vies for your attention and love, you'll only give him the hook. You don't dare reel him in, because then you become vulnerable. Why submit yourself to such risks, when you can achieve the same emotions at a distance?

So you give him only enough attention to keep him hooked.

Everyone of us has played this silly little game, for the same selfish reasons.

1 comments:

Chellette Mina said...

hmmm...why do i feel like you basically just described my life?
props to you....
i <3 the attention but at the same time i hate myself for loving it...
*sigh